Message: Partner Can’t Keep Up
Emma: I love my partner, but our sex just isn’t enough for me. In my past, I had wild orgies, multiple men at once, and intense double anal penetration. That’s when I felt truly alive and satisfied, completely in control and yet so intensely used. Now, with him, the physical connection is deeper emotionally, but it just doesn’t ignite me the same way. I miss this part of my old days.
He doesn’t have the stamina for what I need. I think the only thing that would really satisfy me is a good old gangbang with double anal penetration. I keep thinking about how it feels to be stretched and filled like that; that is what I crave most. I want that kind of intense sex again, but I’m scared to ask for it. I worry that if he knew about my past, he wouldn’t love me anymore.
Sometimes I think about trying something like a gangbang party with him, but I’d probably end up spending the night alone in the orgy, going after my desires because he wouldn’t be able to keep up.
I love him, and I don’t want to hurt him, but I’m struggling with this overwhelming mix of desire and guilt. Am I being selfish? I don’t want to hide who I am, but I also don’t want to lose what we have. I’m caught between my needs and my fears, and it’s tearing me apart.
First of all, your needs are totally valid and you shouldn’t feel guilty or selfish for wanting what you want. That said, it can definitely be a challenge to navigate differing levels of sexual needs and desires in a relationship.
Have you considered incorporating bigger anal toys into your solo play, and seeing about introducing double anal into your routine with your partner with his cock and a dildo? If he’s not open to a gangbang with other men, maybe toys can help you fill your physical needs for a bigger stretch and double anal.
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